2012 new yr resolutions :)

1. world peace; kind of lame...but its real impt!

2. ALL my beloved ones healthy; im sick n tired of gg hospitals visiting ppl!

3. get promoted by this yr (OMG! will be a damn great challenge to me!)

4. save LOTS of money!! cost of living is getting higher n higher n higher :(

5. be HAPPY!! sobss lesser smile more laugh often!! =D

ok enough..short n sweet :)

HAPPY NEW YEAR 2012!!

hello hello..

im 1yr older le.

dont ask me how i feel.

i dont feel as excited as before anymore.

the older the lesser ppl rmb my bdae?

me who didnt join the biggest social networking.

which leads to most ppl ard me dont rmb or dont even noes when's my bdae.

it really reminds me during sec sch days.

once the clock strikes 12am on my bdae.

i'll be holding hard onto my hp.

guessing/wishing who will be the first one who sms  me wishing me happy bdae.

the whole day till 2359

counting how many ppl actually sms me wished me.

the more ppl wished me.

the happier i was.

happy tat AT LEAST nia, derra, laichoon n effie wished me.

none frm my store.

dont noe?

forget?

cant be bothered?

sharon still msg me telling me the kids no show.

asking me for their num...

hais..

i really dont wana work on my bdae..

am i suppose to be sad?

reading back my blog is so interesting.

as if reading story book

:)

ya..

this is the way i wanna be.

having my own study table

having my own work station.

really motivates me more to do my work.

if not i will just lie flat n slp once i reach home.

so can bro go reservist longer?

=/

i spent my off day today so fruitfully!

=D

since everyone ard me is working.

i wana made myself busy too.

dont wana laze at home!

i decide to conduct a new crew orientation for my new crew!

really hired far too many new crew liao.

11 of them within 2mths.

imagine 11 of them giving me all different stupid nonsense?!

i will step into my coffin earlier ba.

held meeting at 2pm.

2 session.

den met syed,.

he's damn angry aft visiting shaw.

came lucky plaza to eat.

coz no appetite to eat there.

den saw me...

syed "off ahh suetlin?"

me "yes boss"

syed "den y are u here?"

me "err to conduct new crew orientation mtg"

 

sharon walked into mgr room..

syed told her "good ahh she..off day come back..hardworking"

sharon "ya good is hardworking..bad is unproductive.."

im like...WTF..

-.-

aft meeting.

went off ard 530pm..

went marine parade for massage + body scrub

heehee

just buy a voucher frm groupon

3 session massage + body scrub = $60

did gua sha for massage.

nice!

worth it!

=D

usual price stated is $444 lah..

.

getting 1 yr older in 6days time.

the older i get.

the less looking forward of celebrating bdae.

but still will celebrate lah!

but y isnt he the one who plan for my bdae?

y am i planning everything for myself?

how i wish i got a bf who is loving n romantic.

he's not romantic AT ALL!!

>.<

his reason "wait i plan u dont like it"

wtf

-.-

doesnt he noe tat if he's the one who plan i will be so so much happier?

i will feel so loved.

i will really appreciate.

he wont understand how i feel.

he will nv do wat i wish for.

im really asking myself so many many times.

im complaining so much.

y am i still wana be with him?

is he the one tat i really want?

do i still love him?

i really dont noe all the ans...

he's the one i chose.

can i regret?

@yun: its not easy n tired being a strong girl

tats all folks..

gonna masking n slp

tmr working at 9am.

nights!

having twitter is good
can just shout out watever i think i feel on the spot
but at times i tweet alot
i do find myself ABIT irritating -.-
lolss

thank you my "gaurdian angel"
u really always there for some reason when im down
its really difficult n not easy to have someone who will understand u stand in ur shoe to think abt ur problem
its really heartwarming tat i cry out my troubles n u share ur problems
my wish will not come true if u wana pursue ur goals
:)

wat nia said on twitter is somehow true..
stop flooding ppl's timeline with all of my nonsense

wat a fcuking day today
its a saturday which is oso goon's off day
alr planned to go out den suddenly i rmb its fizah's wedding
no choice got to cancel plans with goon to attend her wedding
but got to noe ytd her stupidd scheduler still schedule her to work today nv think of its her 21 days working days
wtf lorr brainless black heart cold blooded
so since i go wedding n she go work
so at least i dont feel i bubble her

but who noes just now 230pm sharon called me saying liah/mel called her to complained abt my schedule
nbcb!!
first! pls read ur sms PROPERLY b4 to fcuking complaint. how i wish i can throw my hp at ur face!! "HELLO READ PROPERLY!!"
second! if u wana law by law, send the crew home lah! y still let them punch in?!!
third! i wana see how the next scheduler gg to do schedule!!
forth! if u can complaint my schedule sux! come takeover me lah!

just 1min b4 i ans sharon call
i msg effie asking her wat time she gg over to fizah's wedding
aft the call with sharon
i feel so fcuking down
DEMORALISED (maybe its my karma)
i digged into my pillow n cry

the crew no show my problem?
im not their mother
how the hell im suppose to boe y they nvr turn up to work?!
crew no show on ur shift, isnt u suppose try contacting the crew m investigate?
every single thing tell me, i just stay in store 24/7 lahh!!
better right?!!

at tat point of time..
i so feel like giving up
wheres my guardien angel?
wheres my motivation?
wheres my morale?

few hrs later i replied effie saying im having slight fever..
not gg to fizah's wedding
sorry for lying
but im sure sharon will noe im lying
initially i oso nvr so feel like gg
n now this fcuking shit happen
makes me more dont wana go
i dont my to spoil my off day seeing sharon n kene scold during ppl's wedding

i really damn bloody fcuking HATE lucky plaza mgrs!!
seriously damn fcuking no teamwork at all
u die ur prob
as long as i survived can alr

n now...
im home alone
think goon is working
i msg her to call me if she finishing work early
i so feel like drinking tonight!!!

day 2 at bkk ended :(

aft 2 days of shopping..fun n exciting!! but its kind of scary too =x counting how much i spent..tsk tsk tsk!!

day 1

took the cityline frm bkk airport to hotel..the tokens is damn cute!!

reached hotel..we went for thai massage..shiock ahh!!

den took the hotel tuk tuk shuttle to platinum mall..den walked to central mall..den walked to siam paragon..

den aft one world day of shopping..we walked back to hotel..

the most wonderful thing i think we did is we saved alot on transport..the transport $$ we saved can maybe get me another shirt?? pant?? shoe?? bag?? dress?? LOL =D

day 2

raining heavily!!! -.- sian half lorr..no flood no flood dont worry!! lol

we started our day with another oil massage..

aft massage..same route..haha!! although same route but if cos not sian!! bought so much till looks like tmr not much money to spend!! tmr plan is to go chatuchak lehh!! omg!!! =\

since i start to twit..my blog had became so dead..haas

can u believe it..our 4yrs anni..we did not celebrate..unlike other normal couples..no good dinner..nothing!! the worst thing is..we quarreled n cold war-ed on the eve..made me totally forgot abt the day >.< if i nv hint him..he dont rmb it too?? hais! :( anw we had cfm our bkk trip next mth..the only thing i can make myself feel better..is to treat it as its the gift frm him..even though he said nothing :(

cant he be more sensative to my actions n to noe my thinkings n my feelings?? im damn angry abt this!!

can i be as fortunate as other girls??

how i wish i can... ... ...

i cant even rmb who n when did someone shouted at me at work
n yet he shouted at me

i cant even rmb clearly who n when i screamed at work
n yes i screamed at him

i dont accept his apology at tat point of time
coz i dont want him to say sorry for the sake of saying sorry

want let him feel guilty n reflect on his fcuking temper
but im not a petty person afterall lahh!

very randomly!!
met up june n iris for dinner at nex on 1aug!!!
few mths nv meet up..
i really feel like as if few yrs did not meet up
really miss my sis so badly!!!
perhaps everyone are having busy schedule
but me saying busy is always an excuse
im damn looking forward for the next one!!

ohhya!!
got to noe something interesting!!
june gonna be my neigbour 5yrs down the road!!
LOL!!
so qiao right??!!
she got fernvale flora n i got fernvale garden
haha iris welcomed me to the "gang-gang" family
the conversation of getting to noe we are future neighour is so funny n amazing!!

finally met her after 1 week
den i noe things happened on the day tat i put her plane!!
blaming me for working so hard
shes alr sad n yet i necglect her
worst!!
i put her plane!!

if i were to meet her tat night
think she wont feel sad so long
n not gg to work for so many days
hais!!
but good tat shes ok now
shes weird!!
so forgivable person
if me
i cant do tat
well
as long as she happy can le lahh
(:

anw
i kept on got bullet these few days
even things im confident im right i oso nv argue back!!
omg!!
im really so different alr!!
LOL!!
haha good luck to me!!
=D

hais..
so boredd in bus alone gg home
she's not been gg work since sat
hope u're fine my friend
(:

hais...
got scolded frm sharon like nobody business
really made me reminds me of louise
but i still like louise more
louise...
scold with no double standards
sharon...
scold WITH double standards
well..
she scold
i accept
coz tats the fact
tats wat she see
yes i nv follow up
i did not fight back
i nv defend myself
coz i noe fight back or being defensive bring me nowhere
so i just keep quiet
thinking back...
when i was a star
audrey n josias like tat scold me
i fight back like nobody business
if just now i want fight back
i can!
but i did not i dont want to
coz she's still my boss afterall
i respect her
hope i will learn aft today's scolding
(:

y is it always me?!!
i feel so out...
hais..

she's not angry with me
she's sad n dont want call me
i did not call her
coz she ask me leave her alone
but im worried for her
hopefully she will call me asap
shit does happens at times
life still goes on
the earth wont stop spinning
cheer up
be happy
im waiting for ur call
gg home tgt with u
gg late night supper with u
:)

hais
its really not easy
be it being 1st asst or scheduler
or im just facing the prob at lp??
u are the one who tell me to grant crew request
else crew commitment survey they will say rubbish
aft i grant the request
u asked me y i grant?
n when i nv grant
crew will always go look for u
n u will ask me to do amendments!!
den for f**k u tell me so much rubbish?!!
y not u just simply tell me wat to do??
hais!!

im not comparing
but i just wana noe frm the bottom of ur heart
did u ever see my hard work?
i dont sense u noe or u even appreciate me
for wat i rmb is scoldings frm u naggings frm u
seems like nothing else frm u

always
my one n only off day
call lah msg lah
asking lah scolding lah blaming lah
i dont find any other reason cant be done
y not just blame urself are just a bunch of f**king lazy mgrs?!!
没有吃过苦的废物!!!

lastly
cant u just tell ur 'gf' tat we got no more crew like last time
stop irritating me
she ask u
u ask her ask me
if i say no??
'plsss.....'
if i say yes???
10fingers pointing n blaming me
wtf right??!!!

hais!!!
i want go open new store lahh!!!

??

hais..
she angry with me??
nv reply my msg de??
this nv happen b4...
:(

mos training :(

hais...doing mos training..
with audrey..my rm...4yrs ago..??
haha..she oso thinking y am i 1st asst today!!
such a naughty n problematic star during thosr days..
ppl will chane de mah..
will grow up n think n mature de wat..

haiya..gonna listen wats she talking le
-.-

bad day..but nice meet up

dinner at swissotel

my last dnd